Let the Tears Flow!!!

Today has been an extremely emotional and hard day for me!!!!! Idk why. I'm just sooo overwhelmed with everything going on. I'm sooo indecisive on my relationship with dustin!!!!!!!!!!! I am only in the friendship cause I feel sorry for him!!!!!!! But I don't want to leave him hanging!!!!!!!! And as far as we have gotten it would be extremely hard for me to end it. So either way I go now, I'm stuck!!!!!!! :( I have been crying for the past two hours!!!!! :( But Alaina heard about it and gave me a call. So at least I got to talk to her although she probably hardly understood me I was crying so hard. It had been awhile. And she is not mad at me praise the Lord!!!!! But both her and Mary assured me they love me and our praying for me!!!!! That is really nice to know!!!!!!!!! D talked to me today too and seemed pretty mad at me cause I haven't talked to him in awhile and told me I should calm down. But he doesn't know what he is talking about. The more I calmed down the less joy I had and the more sad I got!!! :( So that also made my day harder!!!!!!!!!! With all this and lack of sleep, I was not really able to focus on school work today!!!!!! Which means tons of homework!!!!! :( Dustin is also worried about me. UGH!!!!!!!! I hope Mrs. Lowe is feeling better!!!!!!! She has had an extremely hard week. Just like me!!!!!!! I feel sooo bad for her!!!!! It's soo cool to see how much we are alike though!!!!!! I LOVE HER SOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!! Basketball practice was pretty fun surprisingly tonight. But I have a game tomorrow and a really busy weekend ahead!!!!!!! Next weekend is my birthday!!!!!!!! So yeah!!!!!! That's mostly what's been on my mind lately!!!!!!! Have a great day and a Wonderful weekend!!!!!!!!! LOVE, LP!!!!!!!!!!! :) Shine for JESUS!!!!!!!!! :) Psalm 30:5

P.S. This note might be a little messed up here and there cause I have had to retype it three times cause my computer kept messing up!!!!!!!!!!