TEARS, HURTS, ACHES, PAINS!!!!!!!!!!! GOD REIGN IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!

Well let's see here.... HMM!!!!!!!!! Since this is pretty much a personal journal to me, I will just come out with all my feelings, hurts, pains, and problems right now. Well in my eyes, my life sucks!!!!!!! But i know God has a reason for it all!!!!! I feel I can't take it anymore, but God comes in again and puts more on my plate to handle!!!!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!! When is enough, enough!!!!!! God, haven't I gone through enough already? Well let's see here, the people who I've trusted most the past few years just leave me and seem not to give a crap about how i truly feel. The friends at church who I have just started to draw closer to pick a fight with another friend. I MEAN COME ON!!!!!!!! I am starting to rebuild my friendship with Dustin and all my friends have to get into it. I MEAN LEAVE ME ALONE, ALREADY!!!!!!!! Well things are going well with Dustin now and his family seems to think that I am a daughter and sister to them, how they feel that way I don't know. But I really dont want to fail them. Well we have come to terms and are really gonna try to not fight anymore, and we can only text for twenty minutes a day. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!! And I told him how I am hurting sooo greatly and he seems to care now. I'm not pouring my heart into him. I'm just glad this are going well with their family and I. And I think they understand and feel for me. Well I called all the girls from church and messaged them and now I am going to try to work things out with them. There is still TONS of hurt and damage to be healed between me and my school friends. I LOVE THEM SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!! BUT WHAT HAVE I DONE TO HURT THEM!!!! :( Well another day of school tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! Kill me now!!!!!!!!!!! jk. I always say it!!!!!!!!!!! But i hate having to deal with them each day. They say they care, but don't show it!!!!!!! :( I talked to my dad today about everything!!!!!!!!! I FEEL SOOOO MUCH BETTER!!!!!!!!!! And now we have daddy/daughter time every night to talk through everything. Amy broke up with one guy and is with another now!!!!!!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEN WILL SHE EVER LEARN??????????? I'VE TOLD HER MANY TIMES!!!!!!!!! SHE SAYS SHE TRUSTS CHRIST!!!!!!!! BUT UGH!!!!!!!!!! Mary is really worrying me too!!!!!!!!!! She hasn't been herself lately and I want soooo much for her to be able to cry it all out and talk it all out with me!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN SERIOUSLY, WHO ARE MY REAL FRIENDS? WHO CAN I REALLY TRUST? WHO TRULY CARES ABOUT ME?????? IDK ANYMORE!!!!!! :( SOOOOOO many people have broken my trust in the past few months it's not even funny anymore!!!!!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I have TONS of homework and reports due soon but where is there time to do it????? :( YAY!!!!!!!! BASKETBALL IS FINALLY OVER!!!!!!! That was A LOT of pain and problems I should've never brought myself into!!!! NOW COMES THE BIG DECISION!!!!!! SOCCER OR NO SOCCER??????? IDK ANYMORE!!!!!!! I LOVE THE SPORT SOOOO VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!! But is it worth dealing with all the people?????? All the pain?????? And reffing on top of that!!!! I start next weekend!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!! TOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!! WELL THAT'S A BIG CHUNK OF ALL THAT I'M DEALING WITH RIGHT NOW!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED WISDOM!!!!! I NEED STRENGTH, LORD!!!!!!!!! License test coming up soon too!!!!! Practice, practice, practice!!!!!!! And my car got out of the shop today!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! LOL. Delivering newspapers in it today was THE BEST!!!!!! :) JOSH is such a big boy!!!!! LOL. He had such a hard time getting in and out of such a small car!!!!! He looked hilarious though!!!!!!! He kept hitting his head, getting choaked by the seatbelt, and couldn't get his legs out. lol. WELL OFF TO HOMEWORK...Let's see: two long math assignments, a history reading assignment and worksheet, two Bible tests, English research paper, book report, and thesis statement. Well that's all and it has to be done before tomorrow. UGH!!!!!! Not happening!!!!! :( AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I COULD NEVER EVER FORGET MY WONDERFUL BIG SIS!!!!!!!!!!! SHE IS SOOOOO DEAR TO MY HEART!!!!!!!! SHE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!!!!!! I LOVE HER SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!! AND I'M SOOOO VERY THANKFUL FOR HER!!!!!! I'M SOOOOO VERY SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE I'VE CAUSED LATELY THOUGH!!!!!!!! BUT AT LEAST SHE UNDERSTANDS!!!!!!!! THANKS SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! LORD, HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love, LP :)

P.S. KATIE, U ROCK!!!!!!!!!!