I know I have been real down on myself through all this crap with guys... I have gotten to the point where I hate every guy I see because of how crappy I feel over all that happened with Jon. I know it really sucked, but God!!! You've been there for me through all this, and you've proven yourself to be the only guy I can truly trust and not have to be afraid of. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! Please help me to show it more because I know I've been a real idiot to you and not giving you the credit you deserve. I thank you for helping me end it before it got even worse. I keep praying that you would put him in his place and show him how much he hurt me physically, emotionally, and spiritually, but Lord, I know that's not right... I am sorry for doing that, but please teach him somehow through this... You know how much I truly do love him and hate to see this happen. Please help me to get over this somehow.... I don't know what to do anymore, please help me to lay this all down at your feet, Lord, and trust you to get me through this. Please give me direction with these future guys as to what to do, whether I am ready and or able to get over Jon, so that this doesn't happen again. Thanks sooooooo very much for all you taught me through this. Please help me to get over myself and want more and more of you most of all. YOU ARE THE ONLY GUY I DON'T NEED TO BE AFRAID OF!!!
